Leaving and Returning Members Thread

Stormy · Jan 06, 2014 4:36 PM

I got halfway through your post and thought you were going to say you were leaving forever. D: I think I understand, though; good luck sorting everything out.

Swaffy · Jan 06, 2014 10:26 PM

Take all the time you need.

RangerOfIthilien · Jan 07, 2014 12:42 AM

36IStillLikeSpyro36 wrote:

these have been a very rough couple of days for me, on a mental level. my social anxiety is becoming more apparent taking into consideration memories that have been unintentionally dragged up and some recent events. deep down i guess i always felt like this, i just never thought it had a name. i absolutely *do not* like meeting people out of sheer fear of rejection, i don't like being in crowds or paying for things, i don't trust most of the people i know long-term, i've come to assume they will all leave eventually. this is the only active community i have other than a few "hellos" at church. why is that? i don't do anything wrong in those communities, i suppose i'm just too different to really be accepted anywhere. maybe i'm not fun enough, maybe i'm not cool enough.
positivity hurts because i feel like it's only a matter of time until it leaves again. i dread most of the things that make me happy, because i'm often left to wonder when they'll cease to make me happy. but at the same time, i know that hope's in there. i've been on this website for about 6 years now, i guess that's a good sign. longer than i've been outwardly accepted anywhere else, that's for sure.
lately that negativity's been bothering me more, though, i don't know how social i'll want to be for the next few days. i might just need some time away from anywhere where my thoughts might be publicly seen. i don't even want to deal with it and in fact i don't even want to submit this post, but don't worry if i vanish for a few days. if you want to message me on here or on dA, YouTube, etc i might respond. i might not right away.
i probably won't even bother with tumblr, so try not to have to reach me there.

I wish the best of luck to you and hope to see you again soon. You're a good guy.

DanteAndVergil · Jan 07, 2014 12:35 PM

Swaffy wrote:

DanteAndVergil wrote:
I'll be going under the name SyruneStarlight sooner or later, until then, yeah I'm kinda back I guess? XD
I think I'm in love with your profile picture.
(I'm totally not weird.)

Haha, thanks! And no not weird at all! wink

36IStillLikeSpyro36 · Jan 08, 2014 8:01 PM

i'm going to try coming back, i really needed that time away from most others (short-lived though it was), and had a good conversation with a friend that helped a lot.

a lot of stuff caught up to me in a few days, and it resulted in that post. had nothing to do with this site, if you were wondering.

the past had some rough stuff for sure, but i'm glad to say i have you guys, and my friends who aren't on this site, that i'm accepted somewhere and that there are some people in my life i actually feel like i can trust. it's taken a really long time, but maybe i've finally found some true friends. and you all make me feel a little bit better about socializing, whether we talk personally or not.

Flapjacks · Jan 08, 2014 11:07 PM

36IStillLikeSpyro36 wrote:

i'm going to try coming back, i really needed that time away from most others (short-lived though it was), and had a good conversation with a friend that helped a lot.
a lot of stuff caught up to me in a few days, and it resulted in that post. had nothing to do with this site, if you were wondering.
the past had some rough stuff for sure, but i'm glad to say i have you guys, and my friends who aren't on this site, that i'm accepted somewhere and that there are some people in my life i actually feel like i can trust. it's taken a really long time, but maybe i've finally found some true friends. and you all make me feel a little bit better about socializing, whether we talk personally or not.

Glad to hear that. I hope you've overcome your problems for good.

36IStillLikeSpyro36 · Jan 09, 2014 4:14 AM

thanks, Flapjacks. i hope so too, i'm not sure how easy it is to permanently overcome something that might be a real 'disorder', but i think most things are possible *including that* and it's certainly worth an effort.

it helps having good friends. smile

and Swaffy; i mean human-level friends, for the record. God and Christ also help a lot.

Swaffy · Jan 09, 2014 5:54 PM

I've learned in the past that there are some things/feelings that come back no
matter what, but something I can do is learn how to better handle them.

ISLS, you didn't take as long as I thought, perhaps your friends helped. Moral
support is extremely important. And having friends who have been through
the same things help you along because they know what will make you feel
better.

To give an example, in the depressions I've had in my past, I remember
people constantly telling me to smile and be happy. That made me hate them
even more. But those who came down to my level and shared that pain with
me were the ones who helped me out of that depression the most. Now that I
know what it feels like, I know what to do if I meet someone who is dealing
with the same (or a similar) thing. I think it takes a deeper level of
understanding.

Gekoncze · Jan 09, 2014 9:24 PM

I know those feels too 36IStillLikeSpyro36. It is difficult when it all piles up at one time. This community helped me a lot with it. :3 Especially support on spyrochat from, I can't remember now who all was there, Kimori, Zed, Stormy, Brad and maybe somebody else, when I was feeling like hurting myself.. and I really appreciate your support too through PMs that time when I was in love with that girl smile
Sometimes I just need to be alone for some time. I still have to deal with some stuff from my past.

RangerOfIthilien · Jan 10, 2014 1:02 AM

Yay! Welcome back 36!

36IStillLikeSpyro36 · Jan 12, 2014 6:31 AM

i meant to reply here earlier, but just didn't get around to it.

thanks, KingLambda!

Swaffy, you're definitely right. it helps to have people who understand what you're feeling when you're down. i haven't had anyone tell me to just be happier, but i've heard of that and i'm sure that's annoying.

Gekoncze, you're also right, it's hard when it all comes back at once. my big thing with the past is my fear that it will happen again. it's rare that i ever want to hurt myself, but when i do get those thoughts, i keep in mind what a friend said. i could PM it if you want. in fact, you're welcome to PM me anytime. that goes for anyone, really, but to you, too.

Paranoia · Jan 13, 2014 4:15 AM

Hey guys. Not sure if anyone remembers me at this point, but it's good to see this place is pretty active. I might pop in every once in a while, see if I can't get back into the swing of things here. smile

Stormy · Jan 13, 2014 4:30 AM

I remember you! tongue

Really though, good to have you back. big_smile

Paranoia · Jan 13, 2014 4:32 AM

You must have a really good memory yikes

lol thanks

Stormy · Jan 13, 2014 4:45 AM

Yeah, I mean, I haven't seen you in, what, two weeks? Best memory ever right here.

Paranoia · Jan 13, 2014 4:50 AM

Yep. Good times. *plays Metroid Prime Space Pirates theme*

bmah · Jan 13, 2014 5:17 AM

Dropping by to say hi.

Stormy · Jan 13, 2014 5:52 AM

Hi! Good to see you, bmah. smile

36IStillLikeSpyro36 · Jan 13, 2014 6:02 AM

welcome back, bmah and Paranoia!

bmah · Jan 13, 2014 6:03 AM

I don't know if I'll stay around, but I'm happy to visit at the very least. What's new here?

Stormy · Jan 13, 2014 6:38 AM

Not much (yet) other than no one caring if we talk about "banned" topics anymore. I remember you being one of the most outspoken for getting rid of that rule.

bmah · Jan 14, 2014 6:17 AM

I don't even remember that anymore to be honest. tongue

Swaffy · Jan 14, 2014 7:19 AM

I can see changes, but they either happen slowly or they are small enough
that no one sees them.

36IStillLikeSpyro36 · Jan 14, 2014 5:12 PM

we have a tab on the reply page that lets you post YouTube videos now, that's something new. [ youtube] video URL [ /youtube]

RangerOfIthilien · Jan 14, 2014 11:41 PM

Paranoia wrote:

Yep. Good times. *plays Metroid Prime Space Pirates theme*

doo doo doo doo DOO DOO DOO DOO

Hey bmah and Paranoia!

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